So much to do, so little time...: This

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

This

'This' by Darius Rucker is one of my new favorite songs. I love it. I'm the type of person that I listen to words when I listen to music. Nick can't hear the words. He chooses not to. Even when he loves a song and sings along, he has no clue as to what he's singing. You ask him to repeat the words he just sang and he can't.

Anyway, I listen to the words and I really love a song that I can relate to. This is one of those songs.

Here are the lyrics:

Got a baby girl sleepin' in my bedroom
And her momma laughing in my arms
There's the sound of rain on the rooftop
And the game's about to start
I don't really know how I got here
But I'm so glad that I did
And it's crazy to think that one little thing
Could have changed all of it
Maybe it didn't turn out like I planned
Maybe that's why I'm such, such a lucky man

For every stoplight I didn't make
Every chance I did or I didn't take
All the nights I went too far
All the girls that broke my heart
All the doors that I had to close
All the things I knew but I didn't know
Thank God for all I missed
Cause it led me here to this

Like the girl that I loved in high school
Who said she could do better
Or the college I wanted to go to
Till I got that letter
All the fights and the tears and the heartache
I thought I'd never get through
And the moment I almost gave up
All led me here to you
I didn't understand it way back when
But sittin' here right now
It all makes perfect sense

Every stoplight I didn't make
Every chance I did or I didn't take
All the nights I went too far
All the girls that broke my heart
All the doors that I had to close
All the things I knew but I didn't know
Thank god for all I missed
Cause it led me here to this

Oh I cried when my momma passed away
And now I got an angel
Looking out for me today
So nothing's a mistake
Every stoplight I didn't make
Every chance I did or I didn't take
All the nights I went too far
All the girls that broke my heart
All the doors that I had to close
Everything I knew but I didn't know
Thank God for all I missed
Cause it led me here to this

Led me here to this

It really makes you think about how everything that has ever happened to you, makes you who you are. Everything. Nick and I were watching a basketball game this past weekend on TV. The Iowa Hawkeyes were playing. I almost went to Iowa. I loved it. I loved the campus. I loved a lot of things about it. But I couldn't go that far away. Had I gone to Iowa, I never would have met Nick. I never would have Dominick. Or an Annabelle on the way.

If it weren't for me and my friend Ashley wanting to stay out of our parent's houses so bad, I never would have gotten an apartment the summer after Freshman year. If we hadn't gotten an apartment, I never would have needed a summer job to pay utility bills, etc. If I didn't need a summer job, I wouldn't have worked at the Oyster Bar and I never would have met Nick. Again, no Nick, no Dominick, no Annabelle.

If I didn't know Nick, then I wouldn't know Mike. Mike is my boss and one of my close friends. I would be in a completely different job, with a completely different husband, and completely different kids. A whole new life. Assuming that I would be married right now had I made some different choices. I could be a single woman living somewhere. Who knows?!

It's just crazy, how these little things shape who you are. I bet Ashley didn't know that she was making a major impact on my life by getting an apartment with me Freshman year, but that's just what happened. My life is forever shaped because of those decisions.

Every single decision means something.

And it all led to this...