Rest in Peace Don. We miss you!!
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Working Out
I cheated really bad with my diet on Saturday and Sunday, so I've tried to make up for it by being really good this week and working out. It's getting rough and making the week take so much longer! I'm ready for it to be Friday!
Sunday we played in a kickball tournament. Unfortunately we lost our first game, so that wasn't too much of a workout, but playing in the sun for a little over an hour really will take it out of you!
Monday I went spinning with my sis for about an hour.
Tuesday I went running with a friend for about a mile and a half.
Wednesday I went spinning with my sis for about an hour.
Hopefully tomorrow I'll run again and Friday I'll spin again. Maybe Saturday I'll do the 30 day shred DVD again.
Then Sunday it's all about relaxing and watching the Colts beat the Pats!! Go Manning!
Sunday we played in a kickball tournament. Unfortunately we lost our first game, so that wasn't too much of a workout, but playing in the sun for a little over an hour really will take it out of you!
Monday I went spinning with my sis for about an hour.
Tuesday I went running with a friend for about a mile and a half.
Wednesday I went spinning with my sis for about an hour.
Hopefully tomorrow I'll run again and Friday I'll spin again. Maybe Saturday I'll do the 30 day shred DVD again.
Then Sunday it's all about relaxing and watching the Colts beat the Pats!! Go Manning!
Monday, November 9, 2009
On a happier note
My friend Beth got a baby!!! They have been trying to adopt for awhile and they finally got their baby! Beautiful baby Jubilee. I am SOO happy for them I can't even begin to describe it.
You can read her blog on the right - A+A adopt a baby.
Congrats Beth, Andrew and new Baby Jubilee!
You can read her blog on the right - A+A adopt a baby.
Congrats Beth, Andrew and new Baby Jubilee!
Major Vent....Sorry in advance
I have to get this out. I know this is probably not the best place for it, since it's public, but I don't care. I have to get it out and just complain and be mad and feel sorry for myself.
Many of you know the whole story about my brother. He's ten years older than me and in the Navy. He and I used to be very close. He got married in 1997. He was then transferred to Hawaii and I visited him a few times there. Everything was great. From Hawaii he moved to Florida and I visited him there. Everything is still great. Finally, from there he moved to California and I even visited him there. I'm his first daughter's godmother.
From there things turn sour. He got sent to Iraq and Afghanistan and things happened and all of a sudden, he wasn't allowed to talk to us anymore. We don't know what changed, but all of a sudden we were the 'bad guys'. No more talking to my brother.
I got engaged in 2005. I emailed my brother and asked if he would come. He emailed me back and promised me that he would "never miss" his little sister's wedding. Fast forward to the NIGHT before my wedding. He calls my cell phone to tell me that he won't be coming in (no kidding) and the reason is his wife hurt her neck and can't watch the kids by herself. Fine. Whatever. I don't believe him but I don't care. He's missing my wedding but he called and I'll try to be the bigger person and accept this. He told me to call him when I got back from my honeymoon and we'd talk more.
Well Nick and I waited three weeks to go on our honeymoon so I called him back the next weekend instead of waiting. His father in law answers. I ask if I can talk to my brother and he tells me that I can't because my brother and his wife flew to Annapolis to go to his reunion...hurt neck?? Can't travel?? So now I'm pissed...
Fast forward to the next year. My sister's wedding. My brother came to her wedding. He apologized for not being at mine and we cried together and I forgave him. Again. He told me things were going to be different. Sure. And stupidly, I believed him.
A little less than a year later, well about 9 months later, my sister was about to have a baby. I called my brother and my sister in law answered. I told her hello and as soon as she found out who I was she handed the phone to my brother, extremely pissed off. My brother got on the phone and told me "I got him in trouble" and he would call me later. Again, I believed him. But that never happened.
I've sent care packages to Iraq each time he was stationed there. I've spent hundreds of dollars on his kids for Christmas. I've tried calling and emailing and I never get a response. I thought I was done. But he's my brother, and I always forgive him if there's a chance.
Fast forward again to about a week ago...I am on Facebook. I searched for my brother, just for fun. He's on there. I never thought he would be. I saw his picture. He was smiling and looking like he was having a good time. It felt weird, like he was so close. I asked to be his friend. For a week, there was no reply...today I learned he declined me...his own sister. He declined me. I can't even begin to process this. He's never seen Dominick. He has no idea what he looks like or how big he is. He doesn't know that he's almost walking and talking all the time and just so perfect. He's only met Nick once. I've only seen him twice since my junior year of college. In almost 5 years, I've seen him twice.
I'm so hurt I can't even begin to describe it. I'm officially done. I have nothing left to give. I've tried for more than 5 years and I've gotten nothing but hurt out of it. Technically he's still my brother...but emotionally, I'm done. I'm very thankful to my sister, my parents, my husband, my mother in law and my amazing 3 sister in laws and 5 brother in laws. I'm happy to have 5 beautiful nieces and 1 awesome nephew here in town. I'm lucky to have amazing, generous friends. And I'm extremely thankful for my perfect son.
Those people I just mentioned, that is my family. He's the one missing out, and I can't try to fix that anymore. I can't change the way life is. I can only accept it and make the most of it. I will do that from now on.
Thank you to the amazing friends and family I have in my life. You all mean more to me than you'll ever know.
Many of you know the whole story about my brother. He's ten years older than me and in the Navy. He and I used to be very close. He got married in 1997. He was then transferred to Hawaii and I visited him a few times there. Everything was great. From Hawaii he moved to Florida and I visited him there. Everything is still great. Finally, from there he moved to California and I even visited him there. I'm his first daughter's godmother.
From there things turn sour. He got sent to Iraq and Afghanistan and things happened and all of a sudden, he wasn't allowed to talk to us anymore. We don't know what changed, but all of a sudden we were the 'bad guys'. No more talking to my brother.
I got engaged in 2005. I emailed my brother and asked if he would come. He emailed me back and promised me that he would "never miss" his little sister's wedding. Fast forward to the NIGHT before my wedding. He calls my cell phone to tell me that he won't be coming in (no kidding) and the reason is his wife hurt her neck and can't watch the kids by herself. Fine. Whatever. I don't believe him but I don't care. He's missing my wedding but he called and I'll try to be the bigger person and accept this. He told me to call him when I got back from my honeymoon and we'd talk more.
Well Nick and I waited three weeks to go on our honeymoon so I called him back the next weekend instead of waiting. His father in law answers. I ask if I can talk to my brother and he tells me that I can't because my brother and his wife flew to Annapolis to go to his reunion...hurt neck?? Can't travel?? So now I'm pissed...
Fast forward to the next year. My sister's wedding. My brother came to her wedding. He apologized for not being at mine and we cried together and I forgave him. Again. He told me things were going to be different. Sure. And stupidly, I believed him.
A little less than a year later, well about 9 months later, my sister was about to have a baby. I called my brother and my sister in law answered. I told her hello and as soon as she found out who I was she handed the phone to my brother, extremely pissed off. My brother got on the phone and told me "I got him in trouble" and he would call me later. Again, I believed him. But that never happened.
I've sent care packages to Iraq each time he was stationed there. I've spent hundreds of dollars on his kids for Christmas. I've tried calling and emailing and I never get a response. I thought I was done. But he's my brother, and I always forgive him if there's a chance.
Fast forward again to about a week ago...I am on Facebook. I searched for my brother, just for fun. He's on there. I never thought he would be. I saw his picture. He was smiling and looking like he was having a good time. It felt weird, like he was so close. I asked to be his friend. For a week, there was no reply...today I learned he declined me...his own sister. He declined me. I can't even begin to process this. He's never seen Dominick. He has no idea what he looks like or how big he is. He doesn't know that he's almost walking and talking all the time and just so perfect. He's only met Nick once. I've only seen him twice since my junior year of college. In almost 5 years, I've seen him twice.
I'm so hurt I can't even begin to describe it. I'm officially done. I have nothing left to give. I've tried for more than 5 years and I've gotten nothing but hurt out of it. Technically he's still my brother...but emotionally, I'm done. I'm very thankful to my sister, my parents, my husband, my mother in law and my amazing 3 sister in laws and 5 brother in laws. I'm happy to have 5 beautiful nieces and 1 awesome nephew here in town. I'm lucky to have amazing, generous friends. And I'm extremely thankful for my perfect son.
Those people I just mentioned, that is my family. He's the one missing out, and I can't try to fix that anymore. I can't change the way life is. I can only accept it and make the most of it. I will do that from now on.
Thank you to the amazing friends and family I have in my life. You all mean more to me than you'll ever know.
Saturday, November 7, 2009
3rd weigh in
Just a quick post to say I weighed in this morning and I lost another 2.8 lbs. I'm down 14 lbs total. I'm getting there! Slowly but surely...
Friday, November 6, 2009
Dom's Stats
I just realized I don't think I posted his 9 month stats. If I already did, ignore this post.
Length - 31" (97th %tile)
Weight - 23 lbs. 12 oz. (90th %tile)
Head - I don't remember the number but he was just over the 25th %tile)
So my little man is still growing like a weed. Everywhere except his head! :) Hopefully that is no indication as to how big his brain will be. :P
Length - 31" (97th %tile)
Weight - 23 lbs. 12 oz. (90th %tile)
Head - I don't remember the number but he was just over the 25th %tile)
So my little man is still growing like a weed. Everywhere except his head! :) Hopefully that is no indication as to how big his brain will be. :P
I'll be back
sometime. Sorry my posts are random and then just stop. Blogging is one of my favorite things to do but I'm just "blah" right now.
My Grandpa's sister is in the hospital and not doing well. We just had a funeral for my Grandpa's brother and now his sister is really sick. I'm just so scared that something will happen to my Grandpa and I'm so sad for Uncle Bud and so worried for Aunt Therese.
I had a mini-breakdown yesterday. I was sitting at my desk when one of our drivers came in. He obviously had NO idea what was going on with me, but he started talking to us about random stuff, like usual, and he brought up nursing homes and dead people. Then he kept going on and on about dead people. I couldn't stay in the room. I ran to the bathroom and just cried for a minute. I don't usually let myself do that so I will admit I felt better.
We are busy bees this weekend, and next weekend too, really. Tonight we are celebrating my Mother in Law's birthday. Then tomorrow is my next weigh in. I was bad this week, so hopefully I didn't gain weight! We also have a house warming party to go to at night. Then Sunday is our kickball tournament. That will be fun. Next weekend we have Late Night (an alumni vs. present students from the basketball teams at my old college) and then Sunday morning we leave for Indy!! To go and see the Colts play the Pats. Happy anniversary to us!!
So I will be back. Eventually.
My Grandpa's sister is in the hospital and not doing well. We just had a funeral for my Grandpa's brother and now his sister is really sick. I'm just so scared that something will happen to my Grandpa and I'm so sad for Uncle Bud and so worried for Aunt Therese.
I had a mini-breakdown yesterday. I was sitting at my desk when one of our drivers came in. He obviously had NO idea what was going on with me, but he started talking to us about random stuff, like usual, and he brought up nursing homes and dead people. Then he kept going on and on about dead people. I couldn't stay in the room. I ran to the bathroom and just cried for a minute. I don't usually let myself do that so I will admit I felt better.
We are busy bees this weekend, and next weekend too, really. Tonight we are celebrating my Mother in Law's birthday. Then tomorrow is my next weigh in. I was bad this week, so hopefully I didn't gain weight! We also have a house warming party to go to at night. Then Sunday is our kickball tournament. That will be fun. Next weekend we have Late Night (an alumni vs. present students from the basketball teams at my old college) and then Sunday morning we leave for Indy!! To go and see the Colts play the Pats. Happy anniversary to us!!
So I will be back. Eventually.
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